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why don’t you two keep those rude comments to yourselves and quite judging people. it’s called, people can see and read. you were probably the least likely person that I would think of to make a remark like that. you don’t even know me so that leaves an even bigger impression. these are the times where I wish I was in another school, but I’ve just gotta think positive. 

just came back from the disney concert we performed with Jodi Benson and she’s freaking amazing! It was so freaking amazing to sing with her cause she’s the voice of little mermaid and when we were rehearsing I just closed my eyes to listen and I was picturing Ariel while she was singing part of the world :’) 

it was a nice and relieving day although I’m super tired! So glad to be apart of this choir! 

today was quite a nice although nerve-wracking day because of speeches. I was actually really nervous but it felt nice when it was over. I really hope I get the position, but if I don’t it’s alright because as I said before, knowing all the support I had was wonderful :’) 

the rain made my mood tired and stuff but I had a nice, relaxing night with my cell group! They’re such awesome people haha :) 

Don’t get me wrong, I’m still a happy person who enjoy’s life, but sometimes difficulties and obstacles make it a bit harder. 

Nah, don’t be sorry. Thanks, yeah I’ll definitely be smiling but it’s just going to be tough because I have so much to do right now and just adding extra weight on me is hard. It’ll be alright! 

so my uncle just called me to tell me about my dad. he said that due to the heavy smoking and drinking he had previously done, he was really sick and was on the verge of dying but thankfully healed a tiny bit to prevent that from happening. He’s in debt and my uncle said he was webcamming with him and they were having a conversation and he started to break down. I really really want to see him right now. My uncle told me that when he was on the verge of dying, the doctor asked him if he had any children. He said yes, so the doctor said that it would be best if his children could transplant or whatever the word is and help him replace something. My dad answered, no, I did something horrible to them, I would never want to hurt them in any way. When I heard this I started to cry… a lot. I miss him so much but held on grudge for him for so long because of the divorce and the fact that he moved to another country far away when I was super young. It’s bad that I haven’t forgiven him fully but I still really miss him. I don’t want him to die yet because he’s just too young. I keep praying, so hopefully that’s helping. 

i know i’m going to be bummed if I don’t get the director position, but knowing how many people support me and help me is such a blessing :’) 

I just need to breathe and relax. Society does pressure me more when the mind is already pushed.

i hope my dad’s okay I really do… since I have no possible way of finding him I asked my mom but she didn’t even bother to try. I hope she does something just something. 

i’m kind of upset at my mom for telling me now that my dad’s in the hospital and he’s been in there for a couple of months. she thinks he had cancer because of all the smoking and drinking. I just have to pray for him every day. when I go to taiwan I hope he’s doing fine so that I can at least visit him as much as i’m afraid to. he hasn’t bothered to visit us but that’s not even the point. something I regret my mom not doing was sending all those father day’s gifts I made him when he wasn’t here. all I want is school to end so I can go visit him. 

it’s just been those sleepless nights 

I guess they’re going to have to learn it the hard way because I tried